Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
This Is Me
Me. Magical. Min. Maniac. Monster. Monetary.
"Never let anything known for anyone to stab you in."
FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET!
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Sunday, October 21, 2012
My first boyfriend's name is Seesangbun Somboon.
Very unique name right? Suit my name.. May it be English or Chinese.
He is a Thai. We met in school. And at a special place, I know another guy named K Low. Also a half-Thai and he gave me his number on my back hand but unfortunately, I showered and it came off. Hee hee. A bit on purpose, right?
Went swimming and it's the second time in years. The first time I suffered from shock! Couldn't breathe, couldn't move. What an easy way to go. You don't even know that you're drowning.
I forgot my main purpose of writing this post. Lol. It's just full of "Fuck My Life-s".
Shall go and sleep again.
Oh yes! Got to ask mom about the million dollars house. I am not rich or something and my parents don't even have spare cash to buy 4Ds. I'm bragging but oh well!
Got to go.
I want a house~ At Still Mansion~ I want a house that lies on Still Mansion Road~ (According to wedding bells tune)
Saturday, October 20, 2012
The Reading Room In Neil Road
I got admitted to Buangkok Green Center too.
Was hearing voices in my head until now, it's much better. Lesser now. Perhaps just slimming that went wrong....
Now I am as huge as a hippopotamus! But healthier! My! Do I cherish my health more than quick slimming tablets..
Saturday, October 6, 2012
My first love is the boy who taught me how to make a light bulb light up.
Like duh~ Who don't know that by connecting wires to battery could make a bulb light up? Except that my memory had been messed until a stage whereby I forgot where to place the wires.
Hahahaha. Suddenly, I think that the class photo that was taken, I hunch like fuck.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Terminolgies And More Of Terminologies
I am going nuts for the past 4 days. Glad that it is more than over.
Advanced Cardiac Life Saving (ACLS), Basic Life Saving (BLS), Airway Management and Electrocardiography (ECG) And Pharmacology lessons.
Terms and long names to remember.... Bradycardia, Trachycardia, PEA, class is going too fast, too many long names that I cannot pronounce... Phonics "E" sounds like "A".
Frantic pen.... Writing furiously.... Scribbling... Panting.. Hand aches...
I think I am exaggerating way too much. Theory test is over. Got 35/50. Not good enough.. Got to be 45 to pass.
I passed in the end! See those emergency roll calls in television? I can do that now!!! Hee hee. The first Standard First Aid theory test 3 years ago, the trainers didn't allow us to read up and do corrections - and most of us ended up not knowing the mistakes and scored the same again this year. I am so not going to let my own mistakes in the past pass-by again, so I corrected all my mistakes to learn. Got to be perfect. A perfectionist - my aim to be.
I PASSED! Though with quite some prompting, I manage to get it. But after the practical critical thinking test, I learnt from a Staff Nurse some huge helping pointers and learnt with understanding.
I cannot tell you how excited I am. My class have like so many potential rich-man-to-be. Tall and handsome. Just to feed the insecure in me. WHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
This is more than LIFE! Blissed!
By the way, I thought I was bound to fail the examinations and that I started to make arrangements in my head for preparations for WORST CASE SCENARIO.
Oh, A LITTLE MEANINGFUL JOKE (or whatever you call it) to check your personality (Oh! Personality test?).
What does 1 + 1 equals to?
1 + 1 = 1 + 1
You are answering a question with the question. What the?!?!
1 + 1 = 2
You are knowledgeable and sensible.
1 + 1 = 田 (window or "tian" in chinese)
You have the main ingredient for an IQ thinker.
1 + 1 = 3
You fail all! Anyhow answer rubbish! Or like me, you are just curious at why 2 comes after 1. Why not 3? Or why does the symbol got to look like that? Mainly, the end product is the same.. Still the "fixed" answer/symbol or banana papaya.
1 + 1 = 3 - 1 or 2 / 1
You are using theories on theories. Shame on you! I love this the most!
1 + 1 = 11
I did this when I was young. Don't understand what is "+" at that time. What is the personality? Ignorance, I guess..
The rest is to be updated again once I can recall the full list. Of course, this list's personalities are by me. Not to provide backups for your reckless acts in situations. My friend once ended a debate with "Nobody is perfect". He won, hands down.
Monday, October 1, 2012
I am getting crazy lately.
I kept going to police stations and making reports after reports. First, my debit cards can't be approved. Then million and one things crashes.
A lot of people just closes their eyes when coming to approaching help from the police. Me too. I always hesitated when asking for help - if I could take matters into my own hands.
One wise man told me that the movie I was shot in, have the same situation feel. If this persists, one day, I would start to kill in order to get "justice" to favor me. It definitely is not healthy.
Policemen are blessed by gods to actually act in behalf of justice. Not just what you and me could do. Seek their help. Not to mention if it is things like "peer pressure", "shop-lifting" or even "credit card fraud". Suspicious people could also get into trouble, if you allow so. This is why, we need not have gangs. Police is good enough. Guess this is one very good reason why gangs are being condemned when the government starts "Law And Order". Same thing as to corruption - why we should agree with better paid politicians, high-court judges and policemen.
So many things could be solved in a better way.... And only today did I realize....
I may have thought of using gangs when people picked on me in school (SCHOOL ONLY) when I was molested. I cried like hell on the spot. But he could get into much more trouble if he was to be caught by the police. Not that the punishment given wouldn't ease my hatred and humiliation (that's very true okay!) but by watching him get into trouble with my first boyfriend seems like something that I can account for. That I am looking at the punishment. It kind of soothes my anger.
But now, I have learnt to let go.. Let the police do their jobs, instead of taking matters into my own hand.
Trust me. I cry every time something humiliating happens to me. Like a wanking flasher on bus 197... So many molest cases.... Phew~ Never trust a guy who is alone at home. Not even when you are perspiring with all the heat and exhaustion from carrying your Additional Mathematics textbook up the flight of stairs. My growing stages of life is full of lesbians, girls, women or gays.. Hardly people of the opposite sex. Which is why all my boyfriends have a girl-y side to them....
Oh well... Shooting is really tired and I am really burnt out from all those hoo-has.
And people, please! There is hardly ANY wrong actions that LAW cannot handle. Especially when people changes your mindset with criminal ones and make the actions involuntarily..
Don't want to scare you with anything that I know.. Wacky psychologist.. Direct actions from the past.
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you're oughta stay