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Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Stay Cool Or Pursue
A lot of people have been telling me that there is a girl who looks like me and the pictures posted are like living proof of "after sex style" or something.
I had to re-search the whole entire Facebook posting to see the pictures.That girl don't even look like me!
His brother, OWED ME MY LIFE'S SAVINGS! I am a big spender - I admit Still owe me 4 THOUSAND DOLLARS.
That was way back when I used to work in pubs. I was only 17! SHAME ON YOU, ALLEN. His brother had borrowed money from me, writing a "I OWE YOU" letter in return. He wanted me to lend him three thousand and get back four thousand. I refused. So, stupid me went to give him the money!
He didn't return my money until now. He gave me a lucky charm and I wished him the best for his business. I felt his sincerity in returning my money (Allen, you still owe me, big time! - if you're even reading my blog, my email address will be disclosed later) because he took the initiative to pay me back. Come to think of it, it's like he treated me like a loanshark! Why didn't I realize that?! Because he is too afraid to face me? - Someone pinning hopes on a person, hoping his business would pick up).
He would write letters and sign them, I still have the "I OWE YOU" letters from him. He dramatically wrote it that it is liable in court. Shit! How come it's only now that I realize that he might have a misconception or worry about people who is trying to be friendly to him.
Did he photoshop the pictures? I'm not sure but the girl you are seeing there, it ain't me, buddy.
Actually, when I first heard of this photo, I just brush it aside. "Hahaha", I said, "Not me lah!" and I really don't care about it. I DO take random pictures and with strangers who recognizes me sometimes, so no big of a deal. That stalker actually messaged me later! The story is unfolding.
But what the FUCK?! He hinted so obviously that we had sex. He said in OUR messages that he has no money.
I'm really starting to worry.. Is his family issues with friends the same? It seems like one of the symptoms, getting to know you and ya da ya da. Then HINT UNTIL I CAN NO LONGER TAKE IT ANYMORE and I'm pushing them to the edge.
Hello!!!! Are you in the right frame of mind to even say such stuff? I think you do too much drugs to mix your reality with dreams. I'll fucking slap you if you ever mention that we've fucked. Even by giving the idea is not allowed! I am faithful when it comes to dicks. You don't want to see a hike in cervical cancer, do you?
Finally found the pictures. I was typing this and facebooking the entire episode. HEY! HE EVEN POST IT ON SAMMMYBOY FORUM. God knows what's going on in forums. I don't join forums. Not Beautybox, not cozycot, not hardwarezone, nor others like stupid sammyboy, tommyboy la - all this is I add myself one - Hahahaahahahahah. Look like me? One does look like me but the other I don't know how to describe it.
A LOOK ALIKE FILIPINO MAID?!?!
What's more is that while he is trying to whip up some drama here, I'm sitting down, eating ice cream and chewing on gums. Does that drive him nuts? Sure to do!
I've just re-read my post and I lost myself again. Where was I..... Oh ya! He posted it on sleazy web pages (like I even bother to give any fuck about - I think I'm damn drop dead cool, man -and other forums).
He CLAIMS TO HAVE MORE PICTURES AND VIDEOS OF "US" TOGETHER, YET TO MAKE IT LOUD!
Go ahead crazy fellow! Just don't tell the cops that I was the one who spilled the beans that you have been abusing drugs. I'll never lend money to someone who does drugs because too much ain't enough for them~!
On one hand, I kind of feel bad for that incident. *Calling psychologists* Should I feel bad or not.
My wick (candles' wick) is not even lighted, how can you wait for a storm with that little warm?
Eh, ya huh.. I better get to my point. The cough mixture I'm having is starting to take some effects on me. Fuck it! I still don't have enough fuel to get me going! I kept pressing the wrong buttons "Ctrl" and "Shift".
I "backspaced" the page twice and lost all my words. Every version is different. Fuck, I hate cough mixture. It makes you so drowsy that you cannot even see the letters in front of you. My lenses are getting dry. Why am I pin up on all this shit? IT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS! I have nothing to do with it~
I'm fading off... I'm suppose to be really controversial about this matter and I really am abusing drugs by working (if you count blogging as work. Actually, it is! Because every single inch my body moved means there's work done! Einsteins' or whoever's theory - Normally, I check my mistakes and draft them accordingly, always re-reading and re-reading what I've wrote). I cannot fade off. I don't want to sleep! That's so childish but it's so me. Drugs and me, may work a pair but, thank you - not! - for the Celestina Tiew's article. Celebrities are not spared in Singapore. Elsewhere like America, you can take all the time you want!
I want to post up the messages sent. I am not guilty when I exclaim, "I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO ARE YOU!" after a period of like, what! Ten fucking years?!?!
Now I've finally gathered so much anger in me to overthrow you like a bitch! I just woke up! A gulp of air, show some concern and I'm here. What do you want me to react when I "CANNOT RECOGNIZE MYSELF IN THE PHOTOS" other than to brush aside and continue my journey home (I was with Lyndnn that night). I CAN'T BE BOTHERED. But he is an attention seeker. Just nice. The launch of my new movie, "JUSTICE DEVIL". I am not afraid of you, and he made the pictures so popular! I've tried posting nude-about-there photos of myself and no one commented anything (HMPH - However that is spelled) and a lousy imitation of me just surfaced?! People ask me if I ever regretted bedding him, (ask that one more time and the typewriter at the lawyers' firm is not going to shut up), I'd probably just look at them in the eye and say, "Which bloody part of the picture looks like me!" Certain angles, I agree that I can imitate the girl's bo-chupness. But then what else?!
DO YOU GUYS NOTICE ATTITUDE CHANGE? MAYBE PERSONALITY WHEN BLOGGING OR TALKING ABOUT CERTAIN ISSUES, MUST NOTICE ME BECAUSE IT'S ANOTHER EPISODE OF BIPOLAR! JUST LIKE YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S PRE-MENSTRUATION SO DON'T RUN AWAY OR AVOID ME....... I'M TRYING TO KEEP TRACK OF MYSELF. MY OWN MOOD CAN SWING WITHOUT ME KNOWING. VERY CUTE RIGHT? THIS DIAGNOSIS.... IT'S PRETTY FUNNY HOW PEOPLE VIEW IT.
My life is am open book. Transparent! Ask and I'll tell. I don't initiate talks nor my girlfriends show attention to this fella. What's his name? Fred Chua. Some desperate guy trying to get fresh with me. I linked his name to his Facebook page (pretty girls out there, "look out for this kind of guy", decent chap, decent chap....) BUT HE IS A PERVERT! Might as well market him this way so that he can have more girls chatting him up. Hey, the profile photo DO look quite handsome!
Does he think that he is Edison Number Two? There's no boyfriends (as stated in The New Paper article) that it is suggesting to disclose "hush hush". HUSH MY FUCKING FOOT. YOU ARE TALKING TO A REPORTER! REPORTER REPORTS! DUH~ ANYONE LOST MY POINT?!?!
He wants attention! So he conveniently messaged me in Facebook, and ME, deliberately ignoring other issues other than work, here! Wait huh..... I either got to print screen the chat screen or I'd be typing it here.
After an hour (HAHAHAAHA, I KNOW IT'S DAMN SLOW BUT I'M ON DRUGS SO SPARE ME!), the fruit of the day! Not bad huh! Lucky me that I'm doing some decent work rather than typing crap all day long!
You want attention? The more I won't give it to you. A skill I always have when babysitting my friends' babies. Don't give them the attention. They aren't deprived of it. So, let it be.
Fucking hell, I didn't accuse him of being over paranoid. He does drugs. He even commented that I was fat and needed drugs to help me slim down (do they?). I fucking hate myself for not paying attention to where he said the building to be (somewhere in CHINATOWN!!!!!!!!!!, underground clinic is all I can remember. Please don't hurt me) in the area of central. WHAT THE MOTHERFUCKING PERSON WOULD ASK YOU TO DO DRUGS JUST BECAUSE you are fat....... You tell me la. (-.-")
In his not-right-frame-of-mind, your honor, THE VERDICT IS OUT. EVIDENCES SPILLS. THE ENTIRE CHAT! NEVER MIND MY OTHER PRIVATE PARTICULARS AND RESEARCH.
WELCOME, WELCOME. TAKE A LOOK. AND FUCKING PISS-ON-THE-ASS IS THAT HE PLEADED THAT I DON'T BOTHER HIM NO MORE AND LOOK WHOSE THE ONE WHO KEPT MESSAGING ME? RIDICULOUS!
ALL SALUTE, EUREKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PHENEXPECT CODINE COUGH MIXTURE, I WIN YOU! I MANAGE TO STAY AWAKE UNTIL NOW AND SEE WHY PEOPLE LIKE THIS KIND OF HIGH...... I WANT TO SLEEP INSTEAD.
Got me all fired up and crackled the last bit of my lumbar spinal bones........... Shiok!!!!!!!!! And a big fart........... (-.-) For this, I shall stay quiet.....
*Snoresssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss* What more do I have to spill? What more do you people want to know about me? Yes, the above "print screen"s are named alphabetically. The first one "a", second one, "b", third one "cccccccccccccccccc". INTERESTING RIGHT?!?!? I KNEW IT! YA. BECAUSE THERE IS A FILE CALLED "C: drive".
Can someone actually find herself funny?! Hahahahhaah. Because the next few names are concurrent alphabets according to the rhythm of my fingers. Whahahhahahahahah. Lol. Imagine files with names like, "cccccccccccccccc", "dddddd", "eeee" and so on! It's so funny! I can laugh at myself the whole day, I kid you not! OKAY LA.
FUCKING HELL THE TIME DOES FLY AFTER YOU BLOG. TIME FOR MY MEDICINE AGAIN. THIS TIME I'LL MAKE IT DROWSY ENOUGH TO SLEEP. OH SHIT, MY SPORTS BRA IS ON AND TODAY I HADN'T COMPLETED MY EXERCISE (I used to spell it as, "excercise" in Primary School and when doing homework, no one corrected me just because it's mathematics. You know.... Like "Excercise 1A" something like that) I'm proud to say that my elder sister corrected the spelling and no more extra "C"s for "Exercise".
Fuck! The more I blog, the more comfortable I feel. But got to EXERCISE before taking medications or (if I'm in self-abusing mood or experimental mood) after medications. From a sentence to a decision.
Hahahahha. I'd vote this the most interesting blog post ever! Thinking and typing out my entire thoughts!!!!!!!!!!!!! I keep pressing "Ctrl" instead of "Shift". I copy them down, off the keyboard. All spelling is original. Guess what lousy netbook I am using?
Got to motivate myself to run. I am fat. They call me "Chubby" but a hot model got to do what she got to do. Work out.......
Fuck my life!
P/S: I LAUGHED SO HARD THAT I FELL OFF THE BED AND MY NETBOOK CRASHED ON THE STURDY BED HOLDINGS. SO FUNNY. MY PILLOW DIDN'T CUSHION MY NETBOOK SO POOR NETBOOK GOT A CRACK. (Fuck la, I can never lie to myself). KEEP ON GIVING YOURSELF EXCUSE NOT TO CHANGE AND GO RUNNING LA. I SEE HOW MUCH MORE YOU CAN TYPE, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR BED TIME IS NEARING........ BY MIDNIGHT, I MUST FALL ASLEEP TODAY. SO tata....... shhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'M GOING RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!
-2255hrs, 06 February 2013.
Looks like one of the kind of journal whereby your grandchildren will search for clues after your death.
Fuck me la. Not enough time to get a hippopotamus moving!!
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you're oughta stay