Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Thursday, May 2, 2013
Right Or Wrong
Right or wrong if you were to not let go the root of your pain. (Hopefully I'm not the only one who cannot let go of the past!) It seems like a constant stream of music playing in my head.
Some people can just let go and move on. I'm like an open book. All my stuff (those that I can disclose) are like in this diary liked blog. I might seem like a moving stone (and hell of a good spider - multi tasker) but somewhere deep down, I have tons of regrets, waiting to be spilled.
I don't confide in people as I believe that the life lessons from IT Guy and Mr Tang is more than enough. It's the problem with mindset. Anyone can do anything they set their mind to. And all dreams are within reach. Surprise opportunities may come your way and many other opportunities are created by oneself.
Because I once felt the sadness and disappointment when people prefer to give up on you. I remembered all the disappointment with both myself and the man for not waiting for the change to take place.
I have created a huge mistake. Yes, I find it hard to admit my mistakes (last time) and I had to keep hiding my lie with other lies.
My actions are wrong. Like working in night life. Not to mention you guys. When people I know goes to night clubs, I have a certain feel too. Like it's not right for girls to work in these kind of places. I feel that too. And I was thinking, "Man, if I have these kind of thinkings, it's a no wonder people think that bars are like these too!". I never blame anyone.
I'm just waiting for someone to take me away. Away from working life and earns enough for a simple after-marriage life. I want to be a full time mother. To guide my child through life. I am rebellious as a kid which is why I am afraid of karma.
Many advise me on changing as I would never find the correct love in places like bars and pubs (I agree too) as I'm not a nightlife person. I'm way too sleepy for things like this. I rather sleep in.
To change before I look for love. In Belle's book, she once mentioned that a person must be that person that she looks for in a partner. Which is same personality would last longer than the opposite. But if I were to start changing first, there goes my only source of income. I'll drown!!!!
Meanwhile, no one had reminded me of my wet shoulders. I took a gulp and promise myself that I'll make it a point to do so myself.
Ending, I would like to tell you all that, don't ever think about replacing someone in one's heart. Believe in creating your own and have faith in the opposite party. Have trust in the relationship and be confident in yourself.
No one can replace the amount of love one received before.
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you're oughta stay